Friday, December 31, 2010

happy new year.

New years eve traditionally my time to reflect on those things that happened this year. When i look back I have to say I had no regrets. Were things perfect? Of course not and i can't think of any bad things right now. This year, lots of things happened to everyone! to us!!! I Smile, Tears, perspiration, sorrow, etc ...
I'm overwhelmed! I must say 2010 was so good to me. I had the best job ever! a great boss. I met new friends, I finally embraced and accept changes from those people close to me and learned a lot :).

Thanks to my family, relatives and friends and DRO for a wonderful year. For the undying support and love you showed me and for the learning you taught me. Though i had lost one of the closest uncle that i treated as my 2nd dad. Those memories that we shared since i was a toddler will always remain here at the core of my heart.

of course, to our lord our savior! Thank you for showering me with blessings and for guiding me all through out the year.

To someone who help me and offer solutions and tolerate me, I appreciate and acknowledge them

To someone who suffered pains and injuries by me, I would like to say sorry and please forgive me for my innocent approach

Undergo these tasks and challenges we all become mature than before

As the new year begin

I wish everyone to have a happy commencement

and

struggle to pursue the ideal future

Saturday, August 07, 2010

Insomnia attack


I am an insomniac since i was young and been suffering from insomnia once in a while but recently, few weeks ago it's getting worse than i expected. I was widely awake for 3 loooooooooooooooooongggggggg days and the next thing i know i was talking to a psychiatrist. i ain't crazy lol... It's just that tooo many things are running wild in my mind. Work, School stuffs, my family, vivid dreams, those superfluous feelings and a lot more. My diagnosis was I was/am having a Major depression. I wish i can write here all my feelings, wish i can express my emotions freely just like other people. Confusion, feeling of hopelessness, worthlessness, helplessness and paranoia.... Sometimes i wanted to run and hide, sometimes i wanted to die ( crazy side of me) but sometimes i wanted to show off the world who i really am.
What i'm simply trying to say is I'm DEEPLY HURT by those unexpected people. Those people i never thought would hurt me. and and and.... this path i am taking right now? Is toooo faaaaaaaaaaar from what i imagine. I'm just thankful that my work helped me a lot, my friends and dro keep me preoccupied.



And all I know is I need to get out of here. These walls hold in what I choose not to; there are too many of my demons in this house. They haunt me and I can't take it anymore, the pressing and the insomnia. I break a little more every day, and the only thing that could possibly ever stop me... it will never happen.


Monday, July 26, 2010

-.-

There's some lessons you can only learn when you lose someone you love. You think you are giving them the best that you have to offer, then it ends, and you instantly realize what you were doing was not your best. It hurts. I failed.

What can you do? Love is a game I don't play much, but when I do, I try to give him my best. And it always ends up with me reflecting on simple things; like sharing myself, expressing myself instead of hiding what I feel, just being someone I am afraid to be (a vulnerable person). Yeah, I can clearly see now I wasn't giving him my best, just an illusion of it. And I hate myself for that. I am so afraid of being hurt that I destroy relationships.

I am cynical about love. It always ends up with hurt, endless regrets over stupid missteps accompanied by sleepless nights.

Anyhow, that's just what is on my mind right now.

Thursday, June 03, 2010

21 month and counting

Hey babe,

Hey babe,

Your playing HON right now, while I'm writing you this precious letter of mine :). Well, Can't believe that we're celebrating our 21st month together ( 1 yr and 9 months) . I know it was my patience and love that keep our relationship more stronger hahahah... kidding ! This won't take long since I'm effin sleepy na. I wanted to thank you for all the support that you've shown me; thank you for giving me the courage to fight for our love. The roads we have traveled have been long and bumpy, but we survived the ruts. Thank you for always giving me that extra chance to make it and never giving up on us no matter how blurry things are. Thank you for trusting me, for understanding my tantrums and of course for loving me and accepting who I really am. Thank you for the patience, even though sometimes I'm stubborn and childish. Thank you for being so just so wonderful in every way , Thank you for letting me love you like I do and Thank you for simply being YOU.


Chenee



Thursday, May 27, 2010

Selling HON retail accounts

We all know that HON (Heroes of newerth has finally opened. You are not allowed to log in using the old accounts unless you purchased premium accounts for $30. But i have some good news for all Heroes of newerth fanatics out there because I'm selling premium accounts for as low as $20 per account.

Interested buyers:

I accept payment through paypal or western union or bank to bank transaction (i would prefer paypal for easier transaction)


I'm a serious seller here and looking for a serious buyer! I don't entertain bogus buyers and joy reserver,

For more information you can contact me on:

skype :
ordips8
chenee08

ym(yahoo messenger)
babytyche
ordips12

Thursday, April 01, 2010

wala lang

I just got back from our 3 days vacation at mati. the trip that i thought would never happen since it was been re-scheduled for 3 times already hahaha.

Sunday, March 14, 2010

Are you this addicted to milk? LMAO

While doing my work, I came across this blog site of a mother who is worried and troubled regarding her daughter's craving. Here's the letter she made for her daughter.

Dear Daughter,

Im thinking of staging an intervention for you. I believe you have a problem. Your addiction to milk has gotten way out of hand. At first I thought it was a good thing. I personally do not care for milk and never drink it. I was happy that you took to milk so well because of the benefits of it. However, I think you took to it too well. I’m thinking you are an addict now and want you to seek help. I suppose the signs were there all along; you would get very angry if we ran out, you asked for it at every meal, it was the first thing you wanted in the morning and the last think you wanted at night, and you would be irritable if I resisted your demands for ANOTHER glass. The real eye opener was the other day after we bought a gallon at the store. You asked to hold it in your carseat. I thought it was weird, but you are two and two year olds do weird things all the time. When we got out onto the road, I heard a kissing sound. I looked in the rear view mirror and saw you kissing and hugging your milk. You even said, “Love you milk!” I had no idea that your obsession had gone that far. I realized then that my daughter had joined the millions with addiction problems. I blame myself for this just so you know. I wasnt able to nurse because of the seizure medications I am on. Because of this, I think you turned to milk to comfort you. Maybe I shouldnt have listened to the doctor. Maybe I should have nursed you anyway. If I had, we wouldnt be in this predicament now. Im sorry that I caused you so much pain that you had to resort to milk. Im calling the Intervention Show tomorrow.


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I honestly don't know how to react but I find this post entertaining regardless of the mother's worries. Can't help but laugh fter reading her entry a couple of times. ha ha ha :) :) :)

Thursday, March 11, 2010

Terms and Condition

PICTURES AND REAL APPARELS

- Buyers are advised to look very carefully at the apparels' picture before ordering. If not sure about the fabric/product, you may ask the seller thru pm with a link to the picture

- All items are mid-range magazine apparels that are manufactured following the designs and fabrics of the pictures taken from top Japanese magazines. Please note that the brand logo or name on the pictures are the reference only.

ORDERING


-If you want to reserve something , You should be 100% sure you'll purchase the item/s.

- Once an ORDER FORM is sent, the items is considered SOLD.- NO changing or cancelling of orders once the order form is submitted. It would get messed up if you keep on changing. Otherwise you will be posted as BOGUS BUYERS!. from this site and to other sites.- NO Return NO exchange.

PAYMENT

- I will be updating soon for other ways of transaction but for the meantime I only accept payments through Union bank, LBC, Western Union and Paypal.Other details will be sent through PM. Payments should be settled on or before cutoff or else your order is considered as CANCELED or your order/s will be processed on the next ordering batch (PM, text or e-mail me if there are any problems.) - All extra charges for other payment methods will shouldered by the buyer.

OUT OF STOCK

If the product is OUT OF STOCK I will immediately inform you

SHIPPING

-Buyer shall be liable to their own losses and shall not claim the seller in any dispute arising to any issues on all aspects of apparels materials, fabric, measurements, color differences or any delay in delivery.

- We are not responsible for delayed PRE-ORDERS since all items are exported from other countries and sometimes the shipping companies encounters technical problems. But we can assure you that all items will be delivered.

PICK UPS ( FOR DAVAO BASED ONLY)

- Meet ups are also allowed depending on schedules.

TIME SQUARE
GAISANO MALL
VICTORIA PLAZA
NCCC MALL

or you can visit Ordips Cafe located at Door 2 Ong Building Tiongko Ave. Davao City

- When items arrive, balance must be settled first before we hand over the items. If balance is not yet fully paid withing 1 month ( from the day the items arrived), the buyer will be posted on the bogus album + 50% downpayment will not be refunded and be considered as damage fee.

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THANK YOU and ENJOY SHOPPING at DavaoFashions.

Tuesday, March 09, 2010

Woman's day!

We are celebrating the Woman's month and as a tribute here list of things every woman should do that i found while doing work.

Learn self defense. The few hours you take to learn it can save your life. I've seen short women take down guys over 6 feet tall who underestimated them because of size. Size doesn't matter, it's where you hit. I recommend Just yell fire. You can download it FREE or request DVDs. It's less than an hour but it's very useful. Even though it's geared towards young girls, the lessons are useful for all women. Here's the link:

Get involved with politics. I couldn't care less what party you join but educate yourself & get involved. I've followed politics since I was a kid since we had to do current events projects a lot. In fact, the first political race I followed was Mario Cuomo going against George Pataki for NY Governor in 1994 when I was 8 for class. I'm glad because SO much affects women these days & so many aren't informed. When I mean politics, I mean every branch. From your City Manager to the President of the United States. What happens at the very bottom goes up to the top & you need to be kept informed. If you want to better things, get involved. I never heard of whining winning anything. Trust me, the people who bitch the most after elections about things are the ones who never voted.

Know your rights. There are many places & employers that try to intimidate women saying the job will think they're whining or they deny you privileges. I had one job where a guy hurt himself & they found him work to do with no trouble. I had a paper trail 2 months long, prescriptions as proof I couldn't work & they've SEEN me in the middle of asthma attacks, yet they tried to say I didn't qualify for medical leave. Once I went overhead with my letters, they were singing a new song.

Learn how to fix little things for yourself. It's not secret some businesses will charge women extra for some things because they think we don't know anything. I've seen my mother curse out huge, muscular mechanics or business owners for trying to cheat us out of money thinking we didn't know what issues we had. It was (and sometimes still is...) embarrassing as a kid but now that I'm older, I'm glad. Not saying you need to curse people out but it's good to keep on top of things. Even if you don't know how to fix it, we will know where to get it done without being cheated. And check Kelly Blue Book before reselling a car. People will try to underbuy. Changing your oil or tire isn't always easy, but shelling out $30 per service adds up over time. It also helps to do research before calling for services. If they try to up the charge for the same EXACT service, leave...then call the Better Business Bureau (BBB) or whatever business reporting agency your country has.

Break stereotypes. It only takes one to make someone think all women aren't bad. I've seen girls try to be "independent women" with backwards feminism & they make us all look bitchy. So if a guy holds a door for you or offers to help carry something, say thank you, even if you don't accept the help.

Do it yourself. Don't rely on anyone to help. I'm not meaning this as no one will ever help you, but it's not worth keeping your life on hold waiting for others. Learn to exist as one person. I hate when girls get so dependent on men/friends for money, affection or gifts that they can't function on their own & end up using men or others to get what they want/need. My mom told me from the beginning the only person you can trust 100% is yourself & you cant be dependent on people. I've had people my age laugh at me because I go to sit down places to eat by myself (what, I'm supposed to starve because I'm alone?), go shopping or the movies. Yeah it's fun with friends but if I have no one to go with, I'll go alone with no shame. For one thing, it's not good to be so clingy because that too alienates people.

Don't be scared of the GYN (aka: the girlie doctor). They're there to HELP you, not judge you. I've heard so many stupid stories about not going because it's embarrassing, they're "too young", it's uncomfortable, blah blah. It's ONCE a year, unless you're sick, high risk or pregnant. I don't like it either but I'd rather the few moments of discomfort than to not know then, God Forbid, there's a problem that could have been caught early. Trust me, I had to go for cyst issues but I'm so glad I went because even though they weren't cancerous, they HURT & affected my ability to work & function. I was lucky, those who choose not to go may not be. Age isn't a factor anymore. Jade Goody was 27 when she died from cervical cancer & it's making doctors screen even earlier.

Learn to drive. Even if you have someone with you 24/7 to take you wherever, or you live by the train/bus, you should learn because you never know when you may have to get behind the wheel. Plus, the longer you've been driving, the cheaper your insurance will be. New drivers are always pay a little extra because of the possibility of accidents. Pretty much until you're 25, you're a high risk but learn as soon as you can. It gets easier & you'll feel more independent.

Learn something NEW! It just keeps life fun. You dont even have to spend money to do it if you don't want to. I just looked up computer codes in high school to learn how to do up my social sites & I have people messaging me like crazy to help them. They think it's confusing but it's second nature to me on some things. Plus I met quite a few people doing this. Then when that got boring, I started beta reading (which is proofreading someone's writing to correct mistakes & offer suggestions). There's free stuff/low cost activities to do in communities too. I'm taking a $25 six week course on City Services. I've met the police, city manager, city clerks, toured our brand new fire house & next week I go to public works!

Be assertive. It can/will save your life. So many doctors write off women as worries but who knows your body better than you? YOU live in it! If they won't listen, get a second opinion, even if the doctor "gets mad". They may have a bruised ego but you will still be alive & seeking better medical care. Same goes with legal issues. Do you know how many women end up dead because their police force or judges refuse to believe them?

Love yourself. I think this is the most important thing on my list. How can you love someone else or have them love you if you don't love yourself. You are priceless & deserve good things in life, don't ever let someone tell you different!!

Online translation

It is important to know all languages to survive in this competitive world. But it is not at all possible; one can learn many languages but not all. It is easy to understand and make others to understand only if it is written on their mother languages. Some times we do have some business with foreign companies and abroad friends. Even big companies requires a multi-lingual employer to work for the. Translation is one of the easiest way to do.Good thing is with the help of internet we can easily learn different kind of language or translate them.
Translia is a translation service site which offers translation between languages for effective communication. There are various translation experts who offers quality translation of languages at ease. They are the best translation website today and user friendly. Just visit www.translia.com for more information.

Wednesday, March 03, 2010

Heroes of newerth soon update


It's been a while since i posted heroes of newerth updates. Just hang in there because they are scheduled to release a new patch which features a new hero and an update on pollywog priest. As soon as the update release I will post here the changes and modification.
To those who are still asking for BETA KEYS, I Apologize but the open registration is still close. As soon as they will re- open I will announce it here.

STAY UPDATED!


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Seems like Blogging industry is also suffering from recession. Ever since 2010 started, I seldomly received task from those blog to pay sites i registered compared to how much i earned last few years being a blogger. Anyways, I'm planning to publish another blog on wordpress since my work is related to wordpress but honestly I would prefer blogger/blogspot. till here my dear readers. I'm about to play HON :).

Sunday, February 28, 2010

Scary

What a terrible weekend. The 8.8 quake in Chile, the 7.0 in Japan, tsunamis everywhere. Hundreds of people died and children left homeless. I'm sure i am not the only person who felt terribly sad about what happen to our world. Scary isn't it? Yesterday another earthquake hit our place though it wasn't that strong still you could not eliminate the fear especially since we often experiencing earthquakes for the past 2 months.

Thursday, February 25, 2010

boredom

I'm done with my work, done checking my mail and done checking facebooks. Geez boredom and my laziness strikes me again. I even let my friend lester attend the customers here since Jann went home already. I hate this boredom and I hate this aircon coz it's so damn cold and I'm already freezing.

Life could be so simple

if we'd all just learn to pray

Tomorrow is the most important thing in life- Comes into us at midnight very clean. It's perfect when it arrives and it puts itself in our hands. It hopes we've learned something from yesterday.
-John Wayn


perfection is beauty; madness is genius. And it’s better to be absolutely ridiculous than absolutely boring.
-Marilyn Monroe


For it was not into my ear you whispered, but into my heart. It was not my lips you kissed, but my soul.
-Judy Garland

Always be a first-rate version of yourself, instead of a second-rate version of somebody else.
-Judy Garland

I can live without money, but I cannot live without love.
-Judy Garland

If I'm honest, I have to tell you I still read fairy-tales and I like them best of all.
-Audrey Hepburn

We are all tied to our destiny and there is no way we can liberate ourselves.
-Rita Hayworth

It is an extra dividend when you like the girl you've fallen in love with.
-Clark Gable

When two people love each other, they don't look at each other- they look in the same direction.
-Ginger Rogers

The only way to enjoy anything in this life is to earn it first.
-Ginger Rogers


But if something was really important, fate made sure it somehow came back to you and gave you another chance... Events conspired to bring you back to where you'd been. It was what you did then that made all the difference: it was all about potential.


Sunday, February 21, 2010

Dear john

I was watching CSI on studio 23 few weeks ago when a trailer of Dear John was commercialized on T.V, then i found out that it was written by Nicholas Sparks. I've been an avid fan of his (Sparks) collection since the day i watched A walk to remember and since i read Nights in Rodanthe and became a sucker of his creation since then.
"I just finished "Dear John" and cried though about half of the book. The story kept my attention throughout and I never wanted to put it down. I think the story was unpredictable and I liked how modern it was. It was very easy to relate to the characters, as I felt like I knew them. I realize that love is not only in the form of romance between two people and sometimes sacrifce for another only shows so much more love that an Happily Ever After ever could. That's what everyone should walk away knowing after reading it. It's a beautiful story in spite of it's heartbreak & Not only the Best, but the Hardest Lesson a person has to learn about love."

Friday, February 19, 2010

Im back

I was a bit lazy updating my blog, maybe because i got tired updating HON patches or I was having a hard time looking for a nice topic, or i was just busy playing AION, busy with my so called work (LOL), REASONS.. which is which.. I really don't know. ha ha ha..Anyways, Finally i found something to write about.
I am definitely a sucker of quotes. Love, Friendship, Funny, Heartbreak quotes and a lot more. My best friend was the one who indulged me in collecting quotes. Lately it was our routine with dro. I read quotes while talking to him on the phone and shared inputs on the quotes i have read before we went to sleep. From now on I'll be sharing my all time favorite quotes and some quotes I've made all through out the year.


He's right, i'm afraid. there's a part of me that wants to let him in but then i feel myself put up this wall and i don't understand why. maybe that's what strikes me most about him, that despite everything he's suffered from he can still look at life in the most uncomplicated way. i've never known that kind of faith. it makes me so sad that people who have lost everything can still be open to love, while i, who's lost nothing, can not.

- sisterhood of the traveling pant

No one can tell you how to live your life, so live it the way you want.

Someday, you’re going to meet someone who drives you mad. who you’re going to fight with & laugh with & do totally insane things for; someone who turns your life upside down.

-Vanityqts

You’re never gonna be alone from this moment on. If you ever feel like letting go, I won’t let you fall. When all hope is gone, I know that you can carry on. We’re gonna see the world out. I’ll hold you til the hurt is gone.

-Nickelback

Life can be unfair sometimes, but that’s no reason to give up on it.

You have to take the good with the bad, smile with the sad, love what you got, and remember what you had. Always forgive, but never forget, learn from your mistakes but never regret. People change, things go wrong; just remember that life goes on...


Being happy doesn't mean the everything is perfect, it just means you've decided to look beyond the imperfections.

Live the life you love, love the life you live.

You’re just too good to be true. Can’t take my eyes off of you. You’d be like heaven to touch. I wanna hold you so much. At long last love has arrived, and I thank God I’m alive. You’re just too good to be true, can’t take my eyes off of you.

Andy Williams

You are the only person that can make my heart beat faster and slower at the same time.

The Hot Chick

ife is short. Break the rules. Forgive quickly. Kiss slowly. Love truly. Laugh uncontrollably, and never regret anything that made you smile.

Maybe this is going too fast, and maybe it's not meant to last. But what do you say to taking chances? What do you say to jumping off the edge, never knowing if there's solid ground below or a hand to hold or hell to pay. What do you say?

Celine Dion



Saturday, January 30, 2010

Trade show displays and exhibit booths

In the business world today companies and organizations usually develop different approaches for their products to be heard of and for consumers to be aware that what they desire for is just around the corner. That is why trade show displays are developed and introduced as a means of educating consumers/customers that such products exist and at the same time it is a way to inform companies and manufacturers that this certain objects are needed by people. It is a learning process for both sides of the business family the consumers and manufacturers. Usually exhibits and trade shows require companies to build and produce their own stages or booths to display and showcase their product. Days before the exhibit the manufacturers come and set-up their truss and come up with a elegant stage or exhibit booth for their presentation. I personally experienced the convenience and effectiveness of this sort of marketing or education for not only is it helpful to us all but it can be quite an experience. As i recall when i ventured at the last exhibit and trade show display I visited, I met a person who was overwhelmed when he found a certain display that exhibits what he was looking for and for a very good price too. He said and i quote"I have been trying to look for people who caters logo floor mats . Since our company needs a handful. And to think I just dropped by out of curiosity to check this place out". Well let that be a lesson for us all, if a trade show display or exhibit booth displays arrive at your area be sure drop by. You may never know, what the items that you've been looking for might just be around the corner.







Sunday, January 24, 2010

CARiD.com - Car Accessories, Truck Accessories

Here is a common dilemma that mostly haunts all you car owners out there. Are you tired of hunting and looking for the right accessories that would appropriately fit for your car? They say your car reflects your personality. Hence i am sure that most of the vehicle owners spend a lot of time mixing and matching things up, just to get the right accessories for your car. Well today this dilemma has been resolved thanks to companies like CARiD. This company offers you the options to give your vehicles a personality and unique characteristics that would match yourself. It allows you the gift of style which i know all owners crave for. Something unusual extra ordinary that would give distinction to your ride. CARiD offers you a wide variety of choices that can definitely assure you the special touch you desire. They cater from lights,wheels,GPS systems,car mats,exhaust systems and more. Also they not only provide you with fashionable and ideal designs for your cars, but also the quality that one should have for their car. After all who would want to purchase products that do not perform well or shall we say failed to deliver their function.

Today CARiD as a special treat to theor loyal customers offer a special deal for their car mats. They offer a generous discount with their wide selection of car mats. This offer sounds perfect specially since our climate nowadays is without a doubt unstable and unpredictable. They offer different kinds of mats that can cater all climates and of course designs that can suite your car. So what else are you waiting for this generous offer will not last long and will end as soon as supplies are gone. For more updates and news about their promos and discounts just visit the website.



Tuesday, January 19, 2010

Boys boys boys lyrics by Lady GaGa

Hey there sugar baby
Saw you twice at the pop show
You taste just like glitter
Mixed with rock and roll
I like you a lot lot
Think you're really hot hot

I know you think you're special
When we dance real crazy
Glam-aphonic, electronic, disco baby
I like you a lot lot
All we want is hot hot

Boys boys boys
We like boys in cars
Boys boys boys
Buy us drinks in bars
Boys boys boys
with hairspray and denim
Boys boys boys
We love them!

Baby is a bad boy
With some retro sneakers
Let's go see The Killers
And make out in the bleachers
I like you a lot lot
Think you're really hot hot
Let's go to the party
Heard our buddies' the DJ
don't forget my lipstick
I left it in your ashtray
I like you a lot lot
All we want is hot hot

Boys boys boys
We like boys in cars
Boys boys boys
Buy us drinks in bars
Boys boys boys
with hairspray and denim
Boys boys boys
We love them!

Boys boys boys
We like boys in cars
Boys boys boys
Buy us drinks in bars
Boys boys boys
with hairspray and denim
Boys boys boys
We love them!

I'm not loose, I like to party
Let's get lost in your Ferrari
Not psychotic or dramatic
I like boys and that is that
Love it when you call me legs
In the morning buy me eggs
Watch your heart when we're together
Boys like you love me forever

Boys boys boys
We like boys in cars
Boys boys boys
Buy us drinks in bars
Boys boys boys
with hairspray and denim
Boys boys boys
We love them!

Boys boys boys
We like boys in cars
Boys boys boys
Buy us drinks in bars
Boys boys boys
with hairspray and denim
Boys boys boys
We love them!

We love them!

Boys boys boys
We like boys in cars
Boys boys boys
Buy us drinks in bars
Boys boys boys
with hairspray and denim
Boys boys boys
We love them!

(We love them!)

Sunday, January 17, 2010

Life's imperfection

I just turned 20 last year but i don't feel like i'm acting on my age. My teenage life has already ended.
A big part of me are still missing and i still don't know when or how can i fill that empty part of me. It upset me every time my dad will say '' nak! You are supposed to be taking board exam if you proceed to this... If you just blah blah blah blah... It frustrates me at the same time knowing you can't do anything but just listen. My dad didn't a thing to hurt me but it really hurt me BIG TIME!. It hurts me every time i look at my parents working so hard just to give every thing i want. It hurts me for the reason that i know they want to buy something for their selves but they can't because they need to save money for them to pay our tuition fees and other necessities and it hurts me more because i can't do anything and sometimes i just gave them a pain in their head instead of helping them ease the burdens. Few days ago, i gave my self a time to contemplate the past event of my life. Unwanted and unforgettable memories flashes back. Then i realized that we sometimes paint picture with our own mind. We form images that conform with our experiences, the depth and sometimes the pain of the insightful compel us to reflect on how they have touched our lives. The pain is insignificant but the consciousness is not. A lost love, a broken promises, an endless search or perhaps a cry in the dark. Pain has a way of telling us how human we are. Of how weak and strong we truly are. Well, it doesn't mean that my life is full of pain.. But i learned that life isn't all about pain. Life too offers sweetness.an endless embrace, or a simple get together with our loved once or friend. Joy has a way of affirming the rainbows in our eyes. Experiences teach us the hope and despair that we all encounter and sometimes confront. The realization that we learn to appreciate them are the thing that make us go on. We live in a hope that our lives will have meaning and fulfillment and lesson that we learn along the way are embedded in our lives are told by the images of our experiences. The richness or despondency of our lives is manifested by the picture of our past,present and future. We remember and learn. We experience and grow. We hope and we live. Life is to short right? Too short to be wasted they say and i used to believe on that but i still hope and believe to have a bizarre longevity. A long fantastic life ahead of me along with my family,friends and loved once. I just let god guide my way as i am planning to expand my horizon when the right time comes. Life was not meant to be wasted. Life was and is meant to be experienced

Thursday, January 14, 2010

Give a little love to the haitians


I'm sure most of you heard about Haiti. Well I live in the Philippines so I felt and I cant stop thinking of how lucky we were safe and nothing happened to us and I also cant stop thinking of how unfortunate they were. For those of you who don't know what happened here is the news.





The 2010 Haiti earthquake was a catastrophic magnitude 7.0 Mw earthquake centered approximately 15 kilometres (9.3 mi) from Port-au-Prince, Haiti, at 16:53:09 local time (21:53:09 UTC) on Tuesday 12 January 2010. The earthquake occurred at a depth of 10 kilometres (6.2 mi). The United States Geological Survey recorded a series of aftershocks, twelve of them between magnitudes 5.0 and 5.9.
Most of Port-au-Prince's major landmarks were significantly damaged or destroyed in the earthquake, including the Presidential Palace, the National Assembly building, the Port-au-Prince Cathedral, the main jail and at least one hospital.The United Nations reported that headquarters of the United Nations Stabilization Mission in Haiti (MINUSTAH), located in the capital, collapsed and that a large number of UN personnel were unaccounted for including the Mission's Chief.
Haiti is a poor country, ranked 149th on the Human Development Index (of 182 countries). There is concern about the emergency services' ability to cope with a major disaster, and the country is considered "economically vulnerable" by the Food and Agriculture Organization.



So this is it, Haiti, a poor country, has suffered this major catastrophe and what shocked me the most was the destruction of a children hospital.
Maybe we don't know the people that live there but knowing it could have been us it really woke me up and i decided to help, so please if you have somewhere to go to donate things do it, because they really need sun after this awfully rainy day. They need us as someday we might need them, please do everything you can because even one can can draw a wonderful smile on a sad face.

Thanks for reading, I hope you can help in any way. With one dollar left from a shopping day, one can you take on the supermarket, anything, because what we consider nothing is now everything to them please, please help.

Tuesday, January 12, 2010

Drop every fear

We grow and we change. We learn to feel and learn to embrace. We struggle through life with dedication, drive and constancy on our side and passion, fire and ambition on the other, all awhile our failures place a light upon our weaknesses. However, we never admit to our defeats. We envy those who are multitalented. We wish to multifaceted. We breathe to be a loved, a feeling so amazing it empowers our soul. But a warrior within is what we live to become.

Paper cuts may bleed and hearts may be broken; walls may have crumbled and trusts may have withered. Egos may be bruised and battle scars may never fade, but it is the hurt that makes us realize what is real and the effort it takes to get back up will carry us to the top of this world.

Chances are glory lies within your path. Finding it is in your hands.

Saturday, January 09, 2010

Avatar!!


FULL SYNOPSIS:
A paraplegic ex-marine finds a new life on the distant planet of Pandora, only to find himself battling humankind alongside the planet's indigenous Na'vi race in this ambitious digital 3D sci-fi epic from Academy Award-winning Titanic director James Cameron. The film, which marks Cameron's first dramatic feature since 1997's Titanic, follows Jake Sully (Sam Worthington), a war veteran who gets called to the depths of space to pick up the job of his slain twin brother for the scientific arm of a megacorporation looking to mine the planet of Pandora for a valued ore. Unfortunately the biggest deposit of the prized substance lies underneath the home of the Na'vi, a ten-foot-tall, blue-skinned native tribe who have been at war with the security arm of the company, lead by Col. Miles Quaritch (Stephen Lang). Because of the planet's hostile atmosphere, humans have genetically grown half-alien/half-human bodies which they can jack their consciousnesses into and explore the world in. Since Jake's brother already had an incredibly expensive Avatar grown for him, he's able to connect with it using the same DNA code and experience first-hand the joys of Pandora while giving the scientific team, led by Grace Augustine (Sigourney Weaver) and Norm Spellman (Joel David Moore), some well-needed protection against the planet's more hostile forces.

On a chance meeting after getting separated from his team, Jake's Avatar is rescued by Neytiri (Zoe Saldana), a Na'vi princess, who brings him into her tribe in order to give the humans a second chance at relating to this new environment. When word gets out of his increasing time with the alien species, Quaritch enlists Jake to do some reconnaissance for the company, as they'd like to persuade the tribe to move their home before taking more drastic measures to harness the treasure hidden below. Yet as Jake becomes one with the tribe and begins to understand the secrets of Pandora, his conscience is torn between his new adopted world and the wheelchair-bound one awaiting him when the psychic connection to his Avatar is broken. Soon battle lines are drawn and Jake needs to decide which side he will fight on when the time comes. The film was shot on the proprietary FUSION digital 3D cameras developed by Cameron in collaboration with Vince Pace, and offers a groundbreaking mix of live-action dramatic performances and computer-generated effects. The revolutionary motion-capture system created for the film allows the facial expressions of actors to be captured as a virtual camera system enables them to see what their computer-generated counterparts will be seeing in the film, and Peter Jackson's Oscar-winning Weta Digital visual-effects house supervises Avatar's complex special effects.


I was dying to watched avatar since december. Thankgod! yesterday, i and my friend finally watched avatar due to some delays because of that MMFF 's stupid movies all the theaters nationwide needed to remove the movie for 2 weeks for the said festival...

Thursday, January 07, 2010

Remember me this way

Remember me this way
Jordan Hill

Every now and then
We find a special friend
Who never lets us down
Who understands it all
Reaches out each time you fall
You're the best friend that I've found
I know you can't stay
A part of you will never ever go away
Your heart will stay

* I'll make a wish for you
And hope it will come true
That life would just be kind
To such a gentle mind
If you lose your way
Think back on yesterday
Remember me this way
Remember me this way
Hmm... this way

I don't need eyes to see
The love you bring to me
No matter where I go
And I know that you'll be there
Forever more apart of time, you're everywhere
I'll always cares
(Repeat *)

And I'll be right behind your shoulder watching you
I'll be standing by your side and all you do
And I won't ever leave
As long as you believe
You just believe
(Repeat *)

It really makes me wonder why there are people who just leave you hanging on.... when you think that everything is perfect and right then one day you'll wake up and it's slapped in your face that those "perfect" things you've thought of are all gone... and even the memory of it has been flushed away.... without reasons. without goodbyes. i guess it's the same feeling being invited by someone to an adventure with them... along the journey... you start trusting them fully-- laugh with them, cry with them, pour out your darkest secrets... and then in a blink of an eye you'd realize that you are now finishing the adventure alone... then you never hear from them anymore.... without hearing reasons. without hearing goodbyes. its hard to get it over with at first. you deny. can either get mad or be more patient with them. try to understand them.... but then... i think, there are just people who leave you then and there... i am not mad at those people... it's just that, they leave questions that i know will just be kept within those who are left behind... and aside from being left alone, they are the ones who get hurt in the situation.... dont you find it painful that there were days that you wake up thinking about someone who makes you happy every single day... then the next day, you'll never find them.. without reason. without goodbyes. just locked up inside your thoughts.. along with all the questions, reasons, that you badly want to hear.... i was left hanging... was i? no reasons. no goodbyes.

I JUST MISSED MY BEST FRIEND :(

Monday, January 04, 2010

Premenstrual syndrome (PMS)



According to herbalmedicine Premenstrual syndrome popularly known as PMS or PMT (Premenstrual tension) is a combination of mental, physical and emotional symptoms occurring before the onset of the monthly period. All women experience some or the other symptoms during menstruation.

In some cases these symptoms are severe whereas in other cases only mild discomfort is experienced. Woman can easily recognize these symptoms and they occur about two weeks before the commencement of the actual period.

Signs and symptoms: - Important signs and symptoms associated with premenstrual symptoms are given below. Premenstrual syndrome is associated with both mental as well as physical symptoms. Physical symptoms associated with premenstrual syndrome are fullness in the abdomen, abdominal cramps, and tenderness in the region of the breast or swelling, patient cannot sleep properly, headache, fatigue, changes in libido etc. Some of the psychological symptoms associated with it are stress, anxiety, depression, mood swings, irritability etc.

Important risk factors associated with premenstrual syndrome are excessive intake of tea and coffee, stress, previous history of depression, lack of vitamins and minerals in the diet, increasing age, family history etc.

Causes of PMS: Exact cause of premenstrual syndrome is not known. It is believed that genetic factors also play an important role in producing the symptoms of premenstrual syndrome. It is the imbalance of the hormonal cycle of the females which is thought to be the reason behind causing the discomfort.

Treatment: - Premenstrual syndrome can be prevented by making some changes in the diet and the life style.

Some of the important measures that can be taken to prevent discomfort during the menstrual cycle are given below:

Avoid too much intake of tea and coffee and try to take fish oil supplements. This helps to prevent the mood swings. Eat little often, if possible after every three hours.

Increase the intake of vitamins and minerals in your diet.

It is safe to take the non-steroidal anti-inflammatory drugs to reduce the pain and inflammation of any parts of the genital area.

These simple tips can help you to avoid discomfort during menstrual period.

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I am suffering PMS right now and It's a hell painful..hopefully this suffering will end soon.



Sunday, January 03, 2010

When i was a dancer


I used to be a dancer!

I started dancing at the age of 4 when i was chosen to perform a calisthenics dance with my brother. I joined competitions through out my childhood and I loved every minute of it. The costumes, the performances, the workshops and the spotlight. I studied ballet at the age of 5 but attended 4 seassions LoL... But I studied predominately hip hop, ballroom dances and ethnic dances in elementary. Thanks to my Auntie for her overwhelming support and for believing in my talents despite my parents disapproval.
It's been 5 years since the last time i danced and i kinda missed dancing like hell!. Few days agoI and my mom were cleaning our old cabinet and we saw my old costumes that i used. It was nice to know that even though they ( my parents) were never there in every competition that i joined they still value and respect my passion and i was touched when my mom told me that she wished to see me wear those little costumes of mine on stage.. ha ha ha...
I know i'm a bit cheezy. it was just so unusual... I and my mom talking about cheezy thing was way sooooooooooooo unusual. but i'm happy :)

I wish i can dance again... the way i danced when i was young... just wishing*

Saturday, January 02, 2010

4 steps on mending a broken heart

Do you ever wonder why it hurts so much when love is lost?

The art of romance is to give your heart without fear. When it breaks, you become lost with only pieces that remain. It’s a journey of rediscovery and reassembly, as your hands bleed with each piece.


To mend a broken heart is a process of healing, while emotional wounds are akin to physical. Some say it’s best to keep busy, but at the end, the hurt remains. Rid the poisons that linger, instead of using a temporary fix. It’s about standing tall, even when the world crumbles before your eyes.

Step One

Cut all forms of communication. It gives a sense of connection, and getting over requires its removal.

Rid yourself from physical memories, items that were significant.

Take drastic measures because you have to be ruthless in determination. Make it an instinct by doing what’s necessary without involving your mind with consequences that don’t exist.

This is disownment. If the phone rings, hang up. If again, do the same. No matter how many times, hang up, or even better, block. Block all known e-mail addresses as well. If you receive e-mails from another account, delete them immediately, emptying the trash altogether and so on. This also goes for online communities. If they come through snail mail, burn without opening.

You have to take action without giving yourself the chance to think.

Step Two

Think logically. Instead of listening to your heart, listen to your mind. Find reasons and make the choice to believe them. Write them down.

Deny yourself the hope that lingers with the logical reasons you’ve found and listed. Use them to refocus your hopes.

Stop trying. Choose, because choices are set in stone. There’s a lot less room to back out.

Time helps nothing. It only provides opportunities to prioritize. What we choose to do with it makes all the difference.

Step Three

If you’re unable to eat or sleep, acknowledge the difference between inability and unwillingness. Force yourself to take care of basic needs.

Take food as you would medication. If you’re eating too much, portion meals and get rid of junk. If you can’t sleep, close your eyes. If you’re not concentrating, think later.

Don’t give yourself the luxury of self-pity.

Step Four

Let yourself cry. Understand it’s simply another way to express feelings and emotions that overflow. Do anything possible to express yourself, through tears, writing, music, etc. Remember the importance of faith.

Remember that crying isn’t a sign of weakness. Letting your heart out is a crucial step. Why not hurt once and for all and be done with it, instead of continuously?

Talk to friends and family. Allow them to be your support system. There’s no shame in asking for help.

Provide yourself the unturned love. However much it hurts, you’ll always remain your own best friend. It’s your responsibility to take initiative.
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I know that the bridges that I've burned along the way have left me with these walls and these scars that won't go away and opening up.. It always been a hardest thing.....

Friday, January 01, 2010

Happy New Year!

It felt like I was just entering another year with a bright, energetic and full of resolution ready to be fulfilled. Now it’s Santa’s turn to be busy making his list and me also with my how-did-i-finish-another-year list. Hmm, I guess it is done and now it’s time to move on to another page of myself and stepping into another realm of life level. It’s sweet, bitter, dark yet adventurous this remarkable year.
Well, all we want is something happy for ourselves, our family, our love story to turned out to be okay and yes, pocket full of ching-ka-ching. I made some happen this year, some went bad and disturbing, but most of them made a good mixture of my life story. If I read my blog, most of them filled with stories of desperation, courage of being tortured and fragile single soul afraid to be left out alone in the big jungle. Years to come will be more mature and self reliant, more powerful to fight them, brave to spit on your faces and say no to what I really don’t like doing. Sounds harsh, but as a tree grow tall, it will grow stronger and harder. Maybe I can’t put aside my melodrama-personality; at least I can make this pathetic life more interesting with dramatic point of view.
I really can see the difference I made throughout the years, People lie to me; they throw away the true meaning of love, and meaningless but painful words by those people least expected. So I start to build the firewall against the world outside, It was me with full anger capacity, cold against every people try to reach in. But somehow deep inside, I was lonely and more hurt than before, damage by my own ego and self-denial though i had friends and i know they were always there but my self built firewall controlled me.
Then, I was introduce to a world of relationship, full of ridiculous dreams and hope of long lasting love until the day that I die. I promised dro that I will try once more to walk on the yellow brick road leading to sunshine and beautiful shores. didn’t trust him at first, well how could I? I could even trust myself. Bit by bit, I feel something was different about me, after I cool myself down for a while. I start to loosen up and feel the life I’m living.
My point is, I change myself like no one can do it. The lesson I learn wasn’t easy and cute, but meaningful turning me to be stronger to face another year. Yeah, life always has its own way to protect us somehow. Between the barb wires and open wounds, we can always find hands that will heal us and at least make the pain go away.

All I can say is: Be crazy, be happy, be fun with yourself coz it’s your life after all!