Saturday, August 30, 2008

smooth spoken

I am a moody bastard but starting to learn how to control my emotions! I’m not outspoken and words can be heard throughout the limitations of your senses!

I can be sweet, but I can also be mean. I talked a lot and I laugh out loud. I laugh at the smallest & stupidest things. Maria Clara was never my heroine, and I would rather guffaw out loud than hide a giggle behind my hand. I’m a bit shy at first but if I really feel comfortable being with you, I tell you, I’m totally brazen.

I am a laid back person! I’m obsessed with nature, butterflies, photography and traveling! (I want someone to travel the world with). I don’t believe in LOVE @ FIRST SIGHT but I believe that there's a unique feeling behind those stares and longing imaginations!.. And before u knew it...you've found the right ONE!!

I learned to explore childhood life in my own and play with my only imaginary friend ‘myself’, I’m better off in my world! Until I came up to the point of realizing that I have a life to live. Back then I gain friends in my pre-school years and at the same time, started to fight for myself. Violence doesn’t exist in my world before but I don’t even believe in their peace! I became evil when they messed up with me. Instead of a girl of peace and love I have become a girl full of curse and revenge. The more I gain friends, the more they got jealous and trying to bring me down! But I proved them wrong.. cuz I’m not the typical WEAK brat.. I fight for everything and I fight for what is right, maybe that’s the reason why friends loved me just for being ‘me’. I don’t believed in apologies and you rather hold your breath until your breathing stops forever, cause I don’t give a damn my dear! The only thing you get from me is the curse in my lips! I don’t want to fall to pieces and I’m not interested to talk about those shits you’ve done in my life!

I feel that I am nobody.. Just an ordinary girl.. but I am so blessed to have these wonderful people not perfect but enough to be perfect! They’ve seen the best and the worst of me but still support me with whatever I do. The love and care they show me is what keeps me going and strong. Tnx for these wonderful people I’ve known:

♥MyFamily♥

♥Relatives♥

♥Lester♥Abegail♥Vea♥Daboy♥Ganessa♥

♥Aundrey♥Karen♥Ellen♥Kim♥Marvin♥Macky♥Ton2♥Kenneth♥

♥(LAVNGCAKE)! ♥

♥Ethel♥Divine♥Roxane♥Kristee Ann♥

Tuesday, August 26, 2008

Boredom again

Damn! I just miss my school, I miss going to school and my funny classmates and my group mates. It’s been 3 months now since I decided to stop and this boredom crawls up to my senses. The only thing that makes me feel alive is my computer and the internet. Can’t imagine myself without internet. I will surely go insane. Ha ha ha! Aside from this boredom, I hate the weather. It’s so hot that I can’t sleep every afternoon. Hope this will last soon coz I can’t take it anymore…

Till here

Ja Ne~

Survey

i saw someone post this survey on my friendster so i decided to post it here since i have lots of answered surveys posted in my friendster bulletin.. feel free to copy it if u want ^___^

1. The phone rings, who do you want it
to be?
> dunno

2. When shopping at the grocery store,
do you return your cart?
> no...

3. If you had to kiss again the last
person you kissed, would you?
> YES!

4. Do you take compliments well?
> yeah

5. Do you play Sudoku?
> never heard.. is that a game? ahaha

6. If abandoned alone in the
wilderness would you survive?
> surely i will DIE :))

7. If your house were on fire, what
would be the things you would
save?
> myself ofcourse

8. Who was the last person you slept
in the bed with?
> my baby cousin

9. Who do you text the most?
>best friend

10. Favorite children's book?
> grims fairy tale

11. Eye color?
> brown

12. How tall are you?
> 5'7

13. If you could do it over again,
start from scratch, would you?
> no...things will never be the same again..

14. Any secret admirers?
> that's why it's called secret

15. When was the last time you were at
Olive Garden?
> never been there.. wer is that? lolx

16. Favorite place..?
> my room

17. Where was the farthest place you've
been?
> manila

18. Do you like mustard?
> kinda

19. Do you prefer to sleep or eat?
>BOTH

21. Do you miss anyone?
>yeah

22. Can you do split?
>uh huh.. hahah

23. What movie do you want to see
right now?
> mama mia...

24.What did you do for New Year's Eve?
> eat, surf the net.. XD


25.Do you think The Grudge was
crappy?
>hell yeah!

27. Was your mom a cheerleader?
> nope

28. What's the last letter of your
middle name?
> N

30. How many hours of sleep do you get
a night?
> 3-5

35. What do you wear to sleep?
>pj's

37. Is your hair straight or curly?
> straight

40. Do you like funny or serious
people better?
> funny

42. What is on your mind right now?
> lots of things

43. Any plans 4 tonight?
>probably sleeep

44.Whats your fav. song at the
moment?
> stick around


45. Do you hate chocolate?
> i love it

46. What do you and your parents fight
about the most?
> nothin

47. Are you a gullible person?
> no

48. Do you need a boyfriend/girlfriend
to be happy?
>NOO

49. If you could have any job what
would it be?
> chef

50. Are you easy to get along with?
>yeah


51. What is your favorite time of day?
> 9pm

52. Are you generally a happy person?
> yeah

Friday, August 22, 2008

Proud to be Davawenyo

Davao city is celebrating its 24th kadayawan festival. It is a festival of thanksgiving and celebration for a bountiful harvest. At this time of the year, anywhere you would go in Davao, you can see plenty of fruits and flowers. Davawenyos paid tribute to the king of all fruit “DURIAN”, the Queen of Philippine Orchid “Waling-waling” and the Mighty Mount Apo. It is a week long celebration and it is highlighted by the "indak-indak" on a saturday and the floral float parade on a sunday. The celebration of the kadayawan festival kicked off last week with lots of activities all around the city. Of course a lot of tourists flocked the city to celebrate with us. A lot of davawenyos who left Davao also came back to visit the city and celebrate Well almost everybody was up the whole day yesterday when all the malls had their midnight sale. Naturally there was traffic all over downtown. You just have to figure out which route you must take to be able to arrive to your destination with the least number of traffic stop.



Today is the must awaited indak-inak sa kadalanan in other words, “Dancing in the Streets”. Each Kadayawan Festival sees a spray of bright and dazzling colors as communities, schools, organizations, even groups of friends, present artistic interpretatons of traditional tribal dances. Right on the streets of downtown Davao. Indak-indak literally means stomping one’s feet on the ground. “Indak-Indak” is a crowd-drawer since the spectators are treated with a very enjoyable synchronized street dancing among a number of dancers dressed in a particular cultural group they are representing.

Later this afternoon, me and my friends are planning to go around the city and celebrate our very own kadayawan festival. We will go shopping since all malls are having their Mid-night sale and bar hopping.. I really love kadayawan so much hope you guys can celebrate with us. The Pamulak Kadayawan floral parade on the 24th should be a sight to see this year as well. Lots of picturesque floats, I’m sure! By the way, one activity that I hope you’ll go and be part of is Kaan Mindanaw. It’s also called "Kaan Dawet" or "eat and sing", to put it roughly. It’s a week-long event that will be held at the Rizal Park, where restaurants and caterers from all over the city will showcase their culinary best.

Wednesday, August 20, 2008

hurdles

Faith has dealt me a cruel set of hand
everyday i strive to live with it
but seriously speaking
its taking its toll
as each day passes by
i just cant figure
How long i can hold on..
And I’m worried
I’d end up with the worse scenario


A friend of mind said that to me when we were early this morning. He’s one of my guy closed friend where I can share everything with and never felt awkward about it. I buzzed him coz I realized it’s been a while since I last talked to him online. We reminded each about our birthdays since September is approaching. I asked him about his computer shop and he started telling me problems about his “kuya”, about his dad and so worried about his mom since his mom is currently working aborad.

Some of his “PM’s”
----- : im every one's wall
----- : they don’t notice
----- : that
chenee: u need to be strong dro
----- : che
----- : i try to be
----- : but its just keeps on coming

~ pst dro, remember what I’ve told you? You need to be strong in order to face those hurdles. I know how hard it is for you but you’re not really alone and don’t ever think of that. You’re big enough to face ‘em all.

Superfluos

The memories flood in and out. So rapidly, they are impossible to focus.

I close my eyes and picture my life.

All the people I have touched, all the people who have impacted me and the paths I have chosen.


Destructive.

A path that is familiar to me.

Almost as if I am beginning to know the outcome of my decisions before I even make them.

Breathe. Close your eyes. Just breathe.

I can’t seem to shake them. They are everywhere, overwhelming my soul.


Pain . Regret. Selfishness.

Peace is now a fairy-tale

So far away as if it were a dream untouchable in reality.

Pain suddenly flows through my body like an electric shock.

I realize everything eventually comes back to you.

I long for acceptance.

Love that is so perfect, so everlasting.

It all seems so unattainable.

All the memories and the things I have accomplished in flesh

So irrevelant now.

My world moves around me like a whirlwind

I am stuck in a time bomb that will never explode.

I often forget.

It’s you.


It has always been you




i never thought that i can still write a poem for almost 4 years of not writing. i wrote this last February.it's not really good but i decided to post it here since my brain isn't functioning well and i have no nice topic to post. ha ha ha. it's time for me to share my poetic side. LMAO.
Ja`Ne

Friday, August 15, 2008

olympic issue

The gymnastic team from China won the gold medal for gymnastics in the Olympics.





The problem is that a person has to be 16 years old in order to be in the Olympics. It is being reported that one of the girls on the Chinese team may have only been 13 years old as of last November. So she would be too young to be in the Olympics. Here is the link: Link

Do you think the Chinese team should lose the gold if the girl was underage?

Wednesday, August 13, 2008

25% Responsible for the Rape

A British woman who was raped had a compensation package cut by 25% because she was drunk when the rape happened.





She was awarded $15,696 instead of the standard $20,928. The decision was overturned.

She was told "The evidence that we have shows that your excessive consumption of alcohol was a contributing factor in the incident." Here is the link: Link

If a woman is raped while drunk, isn't she at least 25% responsible for the rape?

Saturday, August 09, 2008

Car Insurance

Car insurance is required in most states and is certainly a good idea in others. A sort of necessary evil, automobile insurance protects the value of your car should the car be damaged in an accident, an act of God, or vandalism. Insurance also limits your liability should you injure someone in a car accident. Are you planning to buy a new car? Review the insurance rates on various models before your decide on a particular make and model. Automobile insurance is expensive. Consider the following tips to save your money. Insurance companies are very important nowadays. Not to mention, you will never know what will happen to your house, to your car, to your other properties and even to your life that's why it is best that you have yourself always protected.

The explosion of information on the Internet makes shopping for car insurance a lot easier than it was just a few years ago. What once took multiple telephone calls can now be achieved by visiting websites. Many auto insurance companies, eager for your business, provide a variety of quotes, both with their company and others, via their websites. I suggest you better check auto insurance quotes if you would like to get a car insurance. They can help you find the best insurance companies that suit your needs.

Friday, August 08, 2008

Sunday, August 03, 2008

alejate

I was secretly celebrating something. Just when the party was getting hotter I began to feel nostalgic. It just came out from nowhere. I found myself absorbing all the things that keep on bothering me for a few months now. Those hurdles slowly freak me out. Just when things are looking up, everything comes crashing down. I was and am so scared right now but I haven't been able to let it show or let them know, so i know i look like a total jerk. I’m tired of arguing and now I’m the enemy. Something so string is now being questioned. I don't want to face this reality but by avoiding it I’m a cruel. I can feel it burning my stomached and i used it for comfort because these are one of the few things that can comfort me anymore. i have no one. Even when i can talk about personal things i never get that sense of comfort that everyone speaks of. And i hate talking about how down i feel because it seems like everyone else loves to, but i don't. i hate it. i never wanted to deal with these emotions and now that i speak of them i can't help but feel that everyone sees things such as depression as a way of getting attention. Especially because it seems anyone can find anything in their life to bring them down. i don't. And now that i'm overwhelmed with this i just don't know what to do. i don't want to tell people because no one can help me. i don't want anyone's help! i don't know what i want. i guess i want someone to truly understand me, but no one can. There’s only one person who really understand me but we’re living in our own separate ways now. I know, he will always be there for me, give me advice, cheer me up, but I don’t want to bother him. He’s the only person who really understand me and who never judged me despite everything. After all the things that we’ve been through, after all the pain that I gave him and he gave to me, I’m still thankful that he remains a friend. I think at this point I have to only depend on me. It’s making me tired now. I feel my eyes burning.