Remember me this way

I felt remorse, Early this afternoon my best friend in high school pm'ed me on my messenger, i knew there was something bothering her but when i asked her she told me that she kept on texting me last week coz she can't bear her problems anymore and she wanted to come to our house but i didn't replied. i felt sad for the reason that God knows how i wanted to be there on her side but for some reasons i just can't.

Contemplating, We were in the same class when we were in 1st year high school and we became friend since then. like the others, our friendship has been tested and proven each other that our friendship is worth keeping for. But no matter how bizzare it was seems like wonderful things never last. Just when i thought everything is perfect and right, i just woke up and it slapped in my face that those awe-inspiring things i've thought for are all gone and it really hurts seeing her at school with her other friends, avoiding her and trying to hide the bleakness in my eyes everytime our eyes met.
Before graduation, she wrote something on my notebook.It was something that i never envisage, it was something that really made me cry and made me realized that she still care for me. I know that i can never bring back what we had in the past but we remain friends. i was there when her dad assassinated, she was there when i had problems in schools and my family, she never leave me and yet i left her.I left her because people assumed that she will gave me troubles, I left her when she needed guidance, i left her when she was lost in the core of darkness and i left her without knowing that she needed me most.

Every now and then we find a special friend
Who never lets us down
Who understands it all
Reaches out each time you fall
You're the best friend that I've found
I know you can't stay
But a part of you will never ever go away
Your heart will stay

I'll make a wish for you
And hope it will come true
That life will just be kind
To such a gentle mind
If you lose your way
Think back on yesterday
Remember me this way
Remember me this way

I don't need eyes to see
The love you bring to me
No matter where I go
And I know that you'll be there
For ever more a part of me you're everywhere
I'll always care

I'll make a wish for you
And hope it will come true
That life will just be kind
To such a gentle mind
If you lose your way
Think back on yesterday
Remember me this way
Remember me this way

And I'll be right behind your shoulder watching you
I'll be standing by your side in all you do
And I won't ever leave as long as you believe
You just believe...

CHorus:
I'll make a wish for you
And hope it will come true
That life will just be kind
To such a gentle mind
And if you lose your way
Think back on yesterday
Remember me this way
Remember me this way
Reeee-member meeee thiiiiias waa-aay.

Every time i hear this song i can't help but cry. I dedicated it to her (my best friend) who never let me down. Whoever you are, i wanted to thank you for the wonderful memories we shared, for the laughter and tears, for being my older sister and for loving my parents. me and my family misses you so much.