The memories flood in and out. So rapidly, they are impossible to focus.
I close my eyes and picture my life.
All the people I have touched, all the people who have impacted me and the paths I have chosen.
A path that is familiar to me.
Almost as if I am beginning to know the outcome of my decisions before I even make them.
Breathe. Close your eyes. Just breathe.
I can’t seem to shake them. They are everywhere, overwhelming my soul.
Pain . Regret. Selfishness.
Peace is now a fairy-tale
So far away as if it were a dream untouchable in reality.
Pain suddenly flows through my body like an electric shock.
I realize everything eventually comes back to you.
I long for acceptance.
Love that is so perfect, so everlasting.
It all seems so unattainable.
All the memories and the things I have accomplished in flesh
So irrevelant now.
My world moves around me like a whirlwind
I am stuck in a time bomb that will never explode.
I often forget.
It has always been you