DIABLO 3

Are you ready for DIABLO III? I really can't wait ! BETA DAYS is finally over and  I am sure that every one has already started their countdown . 14 more days to go :) yeah!!!

Let's kick e'm all :)

The best things in life are:
1.Falling in love for the first time
2.Knowing someone loves you back
3.Turning 16
4.Eating ice cream on a hot summer day with your best friend
5.Singing to a song in the car
6.Road trips
7.Snow days
8.Winter and summer vacations
9.Laughing ‘til it hurts
10.Smiling for no reason
11.Standing in a spring rain
12.Ice skating and falling
13.Dancing to music in your room
14.Baking cookies
15.Going on your first date
16.Getting married
17.Walking on the beach
18.Watching a breath taking sunset
19.Playing your favorite sport just for fun
20.Bowling with friends
21.Seeing a long anticipated movie
22.The first day of a school year
23.The last day of a school year
24.Meeting a new friend
25.Running through sprinklers
26.Camping
27.Waking up on a perfect day with the sun in your face
28.First kiss
29.Swinging on swings at a playground
30.Walking your dog on the weekends
31.Eating junk food
32.Learning to drive for the first time
33.Walking through a park
34.Watching your favorite TV show
35.Getting an A on a paper
36.Thinking about the future
37.Singing to your favorite song
38.Getting baptized, and feeling okay for the first time
39.Going to amusement parks
40.Watching fireworks on the 4th of July
41.Helping someone out
42.Celebrating special occasions
43.Walking barefoot through freshly cut grass
44.Playing hide-and-go-seek
45.Slowing realizing your in love, and knowing that one day you’ll be with that person
46.Having a tragedy happen, but watching it get put back together
47.Talking for hours to your best friend
48.Staring at the stars
49.Living for today
50.Realizing how good life is

Life's Highs...

1. Laughing hysterically
2. Dancing your heart out
3. Star gazing
4. Shopping
5. Going to the beach
6. Listening to the rain
7. Ice-cream on a hot day
8. Feeling wanted
9. Getting that warm, fuzzy feeling when you think about the one you love
10. ReceIving text messages
11. Personal jokes
12. ComplIments
13. Late night phone calls
14. Christmas
15. Hugs
16. Kisses
17. Knowing someone misses you
18. Knowing someone is thinking of you
19. Good dreams
20. Skipping school for a day
21. Lying on the grass starring into the sky
22. Going up to the snow
23. Jumping into a warm bed on a cold night
24. Seeing your guys/girls name on your mobile when it rings
25. Your first kiss
26. Talking for hours about absolutely nothing
27. Looking back on the laughs
28. Receiving presents
29. Giving presents
30. Birthdays
31. Air conditioning when it's hot
32. Being full of energy
33. Seeing your boyfriend/girlfriend
34. Watching someone do something stupid, and them thinking no one saw
35. Nice smelling perfume/cologne/deodorant
36. Good hair days
37. Turning on the radio to hear that your favourite song is being played
38. Running into an old friend
39. Strolling along the pier at night
40. Finding $5 on the ground
41. Being home alone
42. Reading a good magazine
43. Sun baking
44. Sleeping in
45. Watching the sun come up
46. Seeing a shooting star
47. Waking up to find the person you love in your arms
48. Weekends
49. Holidays
50. Jumping on a trampoline
51. Sitting infront on the fire on a cold evening
52. Smell of freshly baked chocolate chip cookies
53. Singing into your hairbrush in your room
54. Bubble baths
55. Turning up your sterio as loud as it will go
56. Being so happy it makes you cry
57. Summer
58. Finally completing somthing you started a long time ago
58. Achieving a long time goal
59. Warm nights
60. Falling in love...

happy new year.

New years eve traditionally my time to reflect on those things that happened this year. When i look back I have to say I had no regrets. Were things perfect? Of course not and i can't think of any bad things right now. This year, lots of things happened to everyone! to us!!! I Smile, Tears, perspiration, sorrow, etc ...
I'm overwhelmed! I must say 2010 was so good to me. I had the best job ever! a great boss. I met new friends, I finally embraced and accept changes from those people close to me and learned a lot :).

Thanks to my family, relatives and friends and DRO for a wonderful year. For the undying support and love you showed me and for the learning you taught me. Though i had lost one of the closest uncle that i treated as my 2nd dad. Those memories that we shared since i was a toddler will always remain here at the core of my heart.

of course, to our lord our savior! Thank you for showering me with blessings and for guiding me all through out the year.

To someone who help me and offer solutions and tolerate me, I appreciate and acknowledge them

To someone who suffered pains and injuries by me, I would like to say sorry and please forgive me for my innocent approach

Undergo these tasks and challenges we all become mature than before

As the new year begin

I wish everyone to have a happy commencement

and

struggle to pursue the ideal future

Insomnia attack

I am an insomniac since i was young and been suffering from insomnia once in a while but recently, few weeks ago it's getting worse than i expected. I was widely awake for 3 loooooooooooooooooongggggggg days and the next thing i know i was talking to a psychiatrist. i ain't crazy lol... It's just that tooo many things are running wild in my mind. Work, School stuffs, my family, vivid dreams, those superfluous feelings and a lot more. My diagnosis was I was/am having a Major depression. I wish i can write here all my feelings, wish i can express my emotions freely just like other people. Confusion, feeling of hopelessness, worthlessness, helplessness and paranoia.... Sometimes i wanted to run and hide, sometimes i wanted to die ( crazy side of me) but sometimes i wanted to show off the world who i really am.
What i'm simply trying to say is I'm DEEPLY HURT by those unexpected people. Those people i never thought would hurt me. and and and.... this path i am taking right now? Is toooo faaaaaaaaaaar from what i imagine. I'm just thankful that my work helped me a lot, my friends and dro keep me preoccupied.

And all I know is I need to get out of here. These walls hold in what I choose not to; there are too many of my demons in this house. They haunt me and I can't take it anymore, the pressing and the insomnia. I break a little more every day, and the only thing that could possibly ever stop me... it will never happen.

-.-

There's some lessons you can only learn when you lose someone you love. You think you are giving them the best that you have to offer, then it ends, and you instantly realize what you were doing was not your best. It hurts. I failed.

What can you do? Love is a game I don't play much, but when I do, I try to give him my best. And it always ends up with me reflecting on simple things; like sharing myself, expressing myself instead of hiding what I feel, just being someone I am afraid to be (a vulnerable person). Yeah, I can clearly see now I wasn't giving him my best, just an illusion of it. And I hate myself for that. I am so afraid of being hurt that I destroy relationships.

I am cynical about love. It always ends up with hurt, endless regrets over stupid missteps accompanied by sleepless nights.

Anyhow, that's just what is on my mind right now.

21 month and counting

Hey babe,

Hey babe,

Your playing HON right now, while I'm writing you this precious letter of mine :). Well, Can't believe that we're celebrating our 21st month together ( 1 yr and 9 months) . I know it was my patience and love that keep our relationship more stronger hahahah... kidding ! This won't take long since I'm effin sleepy na. I wanted to thank you for all the support that you've shown me; thank you for giving me the courage to fight for our love. The roads we have traveled have been long and bumpy, but we survived the ruts. Thank you for always giving me that extra chance to make it and never giving up on us no matter how blurry things are. Thank you for trusting me, for understanding my tantrums and of course for loving me and accepting who I really am. Thank you for the patience, even though sometimes I'm stubborn and childish. Thank you for being so just so wonderful in every way , Thank you for letting me love you like I do and Thank you for simply being YOU.

Chenee